June 16, 2009 03:58pm
Diamonds of Depravity: HIV
Source: Adult Industry News
by: Debi Diamond
Debi Diamond speaks out about the recently reported positive test:
First off... YES... it is scary, anytime HIV is mentioned my hair stands on end... not that we are in a 100% safe line of work, but you NEVER wish an illness like that on anyone, I DON'T HATE PERIOD.
I love thrill, I started making porn back in the early eighties, when testing was not in place. I got such a rush, by not only being a law breaker, but a risk taker... Believe Me... I feel that good feeling, that relief, every time I test negative for the virus. I used to race a drag bike, close to 200 mph in a 1/4 mile, every time I made it through the finish, with my health, my head still connected, and my legs still unscathed, I would smile with great relief.
Perhaps it's the thrill we all seek, in things, that keep us involved in something we know puts us at risk...All Actors in XXX are At Risk....
My life is changed, now in 2009... The fears I had for me, were just that, Me. Now with others depending on my health, my well being, I stopped drag racing (I miss it) and have been thinking about doing it again, for it is something I crave.
Being this is the first ''HIV'' scare I have been a part of, been able to read about, been so worried, who, when, where, with No Answers, it has really made me take check on not only the system in place, but the factors involved .
I believe AIM does a great job at keeping the business in check... for the most part, all there, online, vigilant and hard working. It’s up to us, as individuals, to make good decisions, take care of ourselves and be positive.
I Truly Believe in Positive Thinking in All Areas of Life! We seem to overlook the fact that, the basic tests that are mandatory to work, are only HIV, Chlamydia and gonorrhea etc., with additional testing for hepatitis and herpes not mandatory. These are very serious. Hep can kill and herpes, a friend for life.
So back to HIV. Yes, it's serious, but how do we handle the positive test? Rumors run rampant, lives are changed, names are dirtied, all because we have privacy, not a bad thing, for a responsible human being, who should come forward and speak, I have thought long and hard, and if it were me, all though a very hard thing, I would do Just that. And let’s not forget honesty... who? Who did I screw unprotected or share needles with?
What? Needles? Yes... A drug user, in porn is not a rare thing really. I have never used intravenous drugs, but know quite a few that have. So if it was a drug user/actress... fuck... not only should they tell/name the sex partners, but also the drug partners, right? Then Honesty would be the Character Trait We are Solely Depending On...
I have been in discussion with so many on this, so many ideas, so much love.
How about an amber alert type thing? To each their own right? We all do with the information what we will, that would be a good thing. But again, privacy comes into play, and it is so hard to wear the shoes of a positive test, god, I have thought how I would feel, who I would tell and in what order.
So hard, I haven't been doing too many films, at least in front of the camera, but am very concerned for the talent and the ones I cherish in this business I will be very selective if I do go in front of the camera, believe me, I love to fuck!
Me Myself, will continue to test, more often than required, just because, I like me, and as of today, I don't think condoms are the answer in film. I do continue to support AIM. I do think, we all need to take care of ourselves and think positive, and send love to whomever this girl X is....